Flamboyant Flower Float

(I'm doing a 30-Day Writing Challenge and I sorta failed already and it's just Day 2. Hahaha!)

As to what triggered this post...

I feel like I'm drowning with work and responsibilities, yet I feel fabulous and in control. 
But totally inefficient and phony, half assing everything in my life.

...

The life of a freelancer mombie who's trying to be an entrepreneur is a roller coaster.

I mean I'm happy because...

my mentor mentioned me in his webinar and it was beautiful. Husband and Eunice were staring at me goofily smiling. (But then I have to work on another post this weekend)...

Then a past client who has told me he wants to work with me (premium and ideal client) messaged me on Skype. Told me the deal's still on after their app re-design (That's additional work. But additional money. I didn't send a follow up email after a while because as I have said, I feel like I'm drowning na.)

I nailed a DC, sent a proposal and the guy has no budget restrictions! I'm confident I can close it, but again. I'm not sending a follow up because I sorta like Netflix. And that's an inbound lead when my uber supportive tribe tagged me endlessly in a thread.

But then, I'm feeling inefficient and actually unproductive and a slacker because... 

I can't finish client work before the deadline. I'm always a buzzer-beater and it's tiring.

I only have 2 clients right now, 2 part-time.

And I'm hoping this will be the start of my passive income journey.

And I can't even seem to start with them.

I told myself I'm going to lie low on client work. Keep who I have...

And focus on this business. It's an artsy biz by the way, so it's also going to be my therapy.

I think I'm just tired.

And I need to outsource more.

And really pray for discernment.