Just Caught My Breath. Finally.

Our days feel like a warm afternoon inside your childhood bedroom in the province for the past 2 months...

We've been through hellish episodes since August. No wonder I never showed up again here. 

Nana was gone. Insane pressure to deliver for our agency on some days. The health scares that we had to go through for months. 

The worse feeling was moving into our new house when Jezz and I were feeling drained and hopeless. Material things don't matter really. I was fighting all those negative thoughts and emotions. I lived in fear every single day, but I didn't let it show. 

Anxiety still crept in on some days, but we battled it through. 

I was always agitated, and turned to real-life journaling and skin care. Yes, I spend money on face creams and puffy eye bag miracle patches. 

When I think about it, there are lots of new things...

• The Mustard House. It is lovely here. I'm going to write more entries dedicated to our home. 
• 10 PM walks. We spend almost an hour every night walking around the village -- a game changer to our marriage. 
• Skincare and glow up. One day in February, I realized I look old so I started taking care of my skin to look younger. Not skipping sunscreen now. 
• Thiccening up. In April, I was a spoiled baby. We went out. Ate everything our heart desires. And I stopped exercising since last year when I got Covid. 
• Eunice is back to help us. It was in September. She's a lifesaver. 
• Finally cutting my hours on work for the agency on some days. 
• Became a fractional CMO for 1 SaaS. And us generating leads through Twitter, our website, and social listening. Yep, we're showing up on Google Search. 
• I'm officially a plant tita. I love bougainvillea. The malunggay tree I planted lived. Thanks, Nana.
• Jezz is lovelier than ever. :) I feel oh so loved! Of course, we still fight on some days. 
• Jeerux knows his ABC. Knows how to add. Knows what dating is! He is getting smarter and smarter.
• Bro in law got married. Met up with the fam. 
• Exploring BioHacking. I want to stop living in fear.
• Have time for the Lord. I meet up with my sisters to discuss the gospel. When I'm alone, I don't. I need to do something about that.
• I'm confident in driving now. :)

What else?

Hmm, can't think of any. But yeah. Things changed. March was my favorite month this year. Our health scare ended and I'm never going back to it again. I hope. 

At this moment, I'm in Ilocos. And it was bliss, hanging out with our big family. Welcoming a new sister. Knowing that we're still generating money through online stuff. 

I feel like we're entering a new chapter. 

Jezz is leaving for the USA this coming May 5th. And it's just the 3 of us at home. 

I'm getting anxious thinking about it, but I know I'll pull through. It's the driving to get groceries that's bothering me. But I did it before and I'm doing it again. :)

I'm stronger now, ain't I?